THOSE INSPIRED GUYS

hai, there...

entry kali ni berkenaan dengan manusia-manusia yg hadir dalam hidup aku. 1st of all, aku nak bgthu yg aku ni lebih suka kawan ngn laki berbanding perempuan. klo perempuan, i have few of them la bukan takde langsung..but..nape aku pilih utk menulis berkenaan kwn2 laki aku? well, bukan aku nak cakap diorg the best ke ape ke..in fact, diorg tak baca pon blog ni..so, aku selesa menulis utk bacaan sendiri..ok..kwn2 perempuan aku, bukan la x bg aku inspirasi ape2 pon..yes, they did..and thats how sisterhood bond and created. tapi..utk aku yg perempuan, nak bonding ngn kwn2 laki, its almost impossible..guy will be a guy..katakanlah korg ade kwn laki yg baik cmne walau dari kecil sekalipon, in the end, diorg akan path away gak..thats why i choose them utk penulisan kali ni. selama 23 tahun aku hidup dan menjadi dewasa, i had known these 3 guys yg bg impact paling besar dlm hidup aku. bila tgok balik kehidupan aku, aku kira bertuah sbb berkenalan dgn 3 org laki ni. 

dari mereka, aku belajar pelbagai bnde..aku tgok perubahan mereka dari tak matang menjadi lelaki dewasa. aku rase, klo diorg ade awek, that girl really need to appreciate him. unlike me..aku tak appreciate diorg..bila diorg ade, aku turn my back to them..never listen to them..full with my ego and pride..until they were gone..now 1 of them already gone which is my Insomnia Buddy/ my Long Lost Friend, Mr. Fiki...one is ready to be gone which is my Late Nite Food Buddy, Mr. Pami and one..that i dont know until when he will be there for me, Mr. 4-Years Senior, Sally..

all these guys, i pray to god that one day, all of u can meet the true one in your life..take care of her..make her happy..and for the girls that are fated to them, please..take a good care of them..take care of their heart..i love u guys..you are the best and most inspired guys that i ever met! i guess we should path now, everybody..nice to meet all of u.. :)

THAT TEMPORARY PEOPLE

hmmm..aku tahu tahun lepas aku dah janji tak mau cari temporary people and less connection with others..ye..ye..aku mampu gelak je skang..bende ni masih dalam proses lagi. aku skang menempatkan diri aku praktikal berdekatan ngn rumah aku. aku spend banyak masa ngn family aku. for friends plak...sebabkan aku jauh, aku rase terpinggir sikit..skang kwn yg ade cuma member aku dari skola menengah je..sorg..and..sorg lagi..partner in crime aku mase aku keje kat mall..org yg aku swear xkn kontek lagi lepas berhenti keje mall..in the end, die masih lagi melekat ngn aku..haishhh..i really want to say goodbye to him..i really do..but i dont have the strength..aku xde kekuatan nak cakap "we have to end this friendship..u should be a temporary guy mcm org2 baru dalam hidup aku selama ni..u should come and go like smua org buat kat aku.." hmmm...i should say like that in front of his face. tapi aku tak tahu mcm mane nak cakap..ok..look..die bukan teruk mane pon..die ok..but..most of it, im scared..i dont want to like a random guy like this..hes so kind..die baik sgt sampai kalo pegi mane2 pon org misunderstood us as a couple..in fact, aku x suka cara aku yg mula nak merajuk ngn die..yg mula rase nak jeles2 ngn die..aku x suka cara aku yg mcm tu..die sape ngn aku? die sape yg sampai aku kene nak merajuk, tacing, sentap klo die buat sesuatu yg sakitkan aty aku?? gooshh!! i really have lost my mind!!

its true die ajar aku this life lesson..its true die percayakan aku..its true die guide aku in everything yg aku tak tahu instead of gelakkan aku..its true if im in a bad condition, and he was here in hometown, he surely give me chocolate and take me to some kind of meals...yes..die mmg suka bawak aku g tempat makanan..im totally fat ass now because off him! yg ni, aku blame die 100%!! how dare he take me to some kind of delicious foods in town??!! i hate him so muchh!! damn he! gooshhh!! i really want to kill him rite now! why i have to meet u in the 1st place??? did u know that im only pretend in front of u?? did u know that im pretend to be ur friend? cant u see that? looks like i have to pray to god hardly so that he will find himself a good girlfriend so that this friendship will end soon! oh Lord, please give him some other girl and open his heart for that girl u sent so that our friendship will end soon..please god..i dont want to lie and pretend to him again..