DON'T SPEAK..I KNOW..

You and me 
We used to be together 
Everyday together always 
I really feel 
That I'm losing my best friend 
I can't believe
This could be the end 
It looks as though you're letting go 
And if it's real 
Well I don't want to know 

Don't speak 
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining 
Don't tell me cause it hurts 
Don't speak 
I know what you're thinking 
I don't need your reasons 
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories 
Well, they can be inviting 
But some are altogether 
Mighty frightening 
As we die, both you and I 
With my head in my hands 
I sit and cry 

Don't speak 
I know just what you're saying 
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) 
Don't speak 
I know what you're thinking 
I don't need your reasons 
Don't tell me cause it hurts 

It's all ending 
I gotta stop pretending who we are... 
You and me I can see us dying...are we? 

Don't speak 
I know just what you're saying 
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) 
Don't speak 
I know what you're thinking 
I don't need your reasons 
Don't tell me cause it hurts 
Don't tell me cause it hurts! 
I know what you're saying 
So please stop explaining

CRYING FRIDAY

tadi..aku bukak fb..dah lama aku x bukak fb sejak aku mula suka twitter..tp, skang aku dh x suka twitter..sbb nnty ade je post yg buat aku terluka dari seorg manusia. aku sebenarnye dalam pemulihan diri..bukan aku hisap dadah ke, ape..tp, more kepada mencari diri aku yg dulu. bile aku belek2 fb aku tu, aku terjumpa satu link tajukknye "tanda-tanda seorang lelaki jatuh cinta". aku tertarik nk baca..aku pon baca la sampai habis..bila dah habis tu, serta merta air mata aku mengalir..dan aku menangis bukan sebab aku faham pengorbanan seorang lelaki yg jatuh cinta tu..tp, aku menangis sebb tak ada satu pon tanda2 yg disebutkan tu ade pd dia..jauh skali yg nk berlaku pd aku..baru aku sedar, tanda2 yg disebut tu hanya aku yg buat..hanya aku yg jatuh cinta pd dia yg sebenarnye..hanya aku..hanya aku je yg x mmpu kehilangan dia..hanya aku je yg x mmpu berjauhan dari dia..hanya aku yg selalu berfikir pasal dia..aku gelak sendiri..gelak sbb diri ni buta..x mmpu nk memandang dgn baik..

tp, tiba2 aku teringat kata2 kwn aku..aku perlu berfikiran positif..setelah apa yg dia lakukan, masih mampukah aku berfikir positif? kwn aku ckp, aku masih mampu..aku kene dan wajib fikir positif..katanya, kalau aku berfikiran positif, dan walaupon perkara realitinya adalah penipuan semata mata, tp sekurangnye aku akan rasa bahagia sekejap..bahagia sekejap sbb berfikiran positif atas apa yg berlaku..sebelum mengetahui kesedihan perkara yg sebenar. itulah yg aku cuba lakukan..mungkin, ada tanda2 lain yg artikel tu x sebut..lagipon, aku x nmpk ape pengorbanan yg dia lakukan utk aku. dia juga x nmpk ape pengorbanan yg aku lakukan utk dia..

bukanlah mudah utk aku berfikiran positif sebenarnye..tp, jika itu yg kwn aku sarankn adalah lebih baik aku mencuba. dan utk berfikiran positif, aku harus menjadi diri aku yg dulu..utk berfikiran positif, aku perlu buang sesuatu dari hidup aku..dari sikap aku..aku perlu keraskan semula hati aku..menjadi org yg xde hati atau perasaan..menjadi org yg x peduli pada apa org lain ckp..menjadi org yg tidak peduli pada org lain..menjadi seorg yg tidak perlu caring pd org lain lagi walaupon sebesar mana syg aku pd org2 sekeliling aku..cukoplah aku saja yg tahu perasaan aku pd org2 yg terlibat..mereka tidak perlu tahu..

sifat caring hanya akn membawa masalah pd aku..caring akn buat aku over-thinking..over-thinking akan bawa aku pd berfikiran negatif..fikiran negatif akan bawa kepada cemburu melampau..cemburu melampau akan bawa kpd pergaduhan..pergaduhan akn bawa kpd perpisahan..perpisahan akn bawa kpd luntur kepercayaan..luntur kepercayaan akn bawa kpd forever alone..nampak hubung kaitnya? jd, aku berhenti jd baik..aku berhenti caring..utk berfikiran positif..utk memulakan hidup aku semula..bangkit dari kesedihan dan kekecewaan..

SAY ANYTHING..(DEDICATED TO MY BEST FRIEND)

here..listen to my feeling..im not good in express my feeling..this is the closest i can get to express it..

Here I am on the phone again and
Awkward silence is on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now (but right now)
All I feel (all I feel)
Is the pain of the fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes,
Best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we could make it through

So here we are again, the same old argument
Now I'm wondering if things will ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again
Laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise 'til 3 am,
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

Down, down, down...

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word, (Please don't leave)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, (Please don't leave)
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

WE ARE THE INTROVERT PERSON

hai there..hari ni nak citer pasal introvert personality..well, im not aware about this word before sbb aku xtau pon pasal bende ni. tp, aku mengalaminya. bila satu hari kwn aku sedar yang dia ada introvert personality, i guess i have that too..

Introvert personality ialah satu personality yang ada pada seseorang di mana dia suka bersendiri, bersama dunianya atau lebih tepat sekali suka berseorangan. kebanyakan dari kami yang mempunyai personaliti seperti ini selalunya akan disalah sangka seorang yang sombong. well, sebenarnya, kami tak sombong. kami cuma kurang suka bergaul. ok, lets be honest..dulu, kwn aku labelkan aku sebagai orang yang tak reti bersosial bersama kwn2 yang lain. aku pulak tak tahu macam mana nak bersosial mcm yg kwn aku ckp tu. at the end of the day, my life is boring enough. my sister plak ckp, aku ni seorang yang serius, tak reti berlawak..no sense of humor..ok, yg tu aku agree..aku mmg x lawak pon. my bf once ckp yg hidup aku ni kesunyian that lead me menjadi org yang clingy2..and, of coz dia rimas..ok, citer lama..stop about that. aku pon pernah terfikir what happen to me? aku dulu seorang yg suka bergaul, cari ramai kwn x kira jantina, lepak sana sini..but, bila dah start unilife, aku jd pendiam. heheh..takde sorang pon ex classmate aku mase skola dulu percaya bila aku ckp yang aku pendiam dlm kelas aku dekat universiti. diorg gelak lagi adela..tu sbb, diorg kenal aku sebagai happy go lucky girl..

bila aku ada dlm unilife, aku selalu memerhati sikap2 orang2 sekeliling aku. itula punca aku jadi seorg yg introvert. makin kita besar, makin kita tahu siapa dan apa yg kita mahu..tp tak bermakna kita akn pilih jalan yg selalu betul..for my friend, welcome to my world..introvert world..actually, being an introvert person takdelah teruk sgt. kdg2, masa bersendiri tula kita akn fikir apa yang kita mahukan, reflect balik kesalahan dan kesilapan, baiki apa2 yang patot..well, itu pon atas kesedaran dan kemahuan sendiri la..my friend, its true u need nobody to care about u, talk to u, listen to u or whatever u think u can do it by yourself..i once had that feeling..this is just an opinion ok, dont misunderstand what i meant..but, all u truly need is just a closest friend..kawan yg bukan u nk depends on ke, lepak sama2 ke, msj 24 hours ke, but kawan yang when u really need someone, dia akan ada..kwn yg bukan perlu clingy2 ngn u all the time but u know dia akan ada selalu..kwn mcm tu la yg u perlu dlm dunia introvert..takde manusia dlm dunia ni yg tak perlu manusia lain dlm hidupnya langsung..sekurangnye, seorang kwn..sama gak situasi mcm ank perlukan ayh ibunya. we all need someone in our life..itu lumrah hidup..so, dont deny it..

it just an opinion from unprofessional person like me..no hard feeling..no judging..sbb kita dlm dunia yg sama. i just sharing my opinion being one of the introvert person..yup, maybe jenis introvert kita tak sama..maybe u boleh atau tak boleh guna pendapat ni. i bukan serba tahu..i tak tahu pape..i niat share pendapat je..so, its up to u..my friend..OK, SEKIAN

THIS IS US, YOU

hai, there..
last night ive been watched this cliche movie..remember when i tell u a story that u said its "fuh..bestnye cter u.."? i found that story in that movie. this movie called Love, Rosie..u should watch it. it will make u believe what i had told u was real. although i know u never like this type of movie.

u..
if u watch that movie, u will understand what kind of situation that we have been through. that movie is about Alex and Rosie. yup..they are a very best friend until the end. when i watch this movie, my mind only full of us and what we have been through together. i know im not the only friend that u have. but u are the only friend that i have. a very best friend. 

i know, our situation never be the same as before. u with your life and im with mine. i dont want anything or mean to disturb your life. its not i want us getting back together..but all i miss is my friend. but, we both know, that will never happen..to us. we both know, that day will come. the day that u will say goodbye to me..forever..

blowing the chances that come is what i have learn in that movie. if u remember all about us, u will feel the same. we keep blow our chances..and right now, both of us realize the chance will never come up in our friendship again..all we get, all we have is our life. u with your love one, and im with your songs..thats only i got. well..i do miss you. but i wont tell u. keep it silent. watch you happy with your life is my goal. that is what a friend should do, right?

i wont ask more..i just want to keep your voice, keep your photo so that i can remember you well. so that i can tell people i used to have this very, great, supporting friend..a very best friend. and for you, dont ever look back..just go with your life. go on with your love. i believe, this is our fate..this is the end of our friendship..this is us.